Thursday, January 29, 2009
You
Have you ever had something wanting to escape your lips & no matter how tight you shut your mouth, your heart seems to escape through your actions? Always.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Sharing
I wanted to share one of my favorite quotes with you guys (who ever is reading this). Its on my dry-erase board on my wall, but I've never erased it. Its been impressed in my heart & ringing in my mind. Enjoy.
“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”
C.S. Lewis
“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”
C.S. Lewis
Monday, January 12, 2009
Europe
For a few weeks my prayers have consisted of yearning for God to show me something great, to show me my next big step. I have been asking for something to motivate me or to give me a little push, in what I feel is becoming this stagnant old life of mine. Aside from my relationship with Christ (that is number one) I have been blessed beyond measurewith a job that is offering stability, (financial, emotional, & even daily feelings)I have great friends who are there for me & they offer encouragment & community, I have a family that gives unconditional love, we share a bond that helps me get through everything. None of these things fall under a stagnant old life but they do fall under my daily life. I DESIRE MORE. so the perfect opportunity was handed to me just the other day & I decided to go to Europe this May. For the next few months I will be challenged to not throw away my money on redundant things & save. save save SAVE! I am motivated to work hard at my job, save cash, kick my bad habits ( I havent smoked since new years), appreciate more time with my friends & family, & focus on my personal growth as a human being & a disciple of Christ.
So my friends, this is all to say, Im going to Europe in May.
So my friends, this is all to say, Im going to Europe in May.
Friday, January 2, 2009
He shall direct your paths
I dont get how I can be so impulsive about saying certain things & then find it so difficult to talk about how I feel. The problem isnt that I cant express myself the way I want, I think I'm just growing to fear confrontation. Which is not me. On my drive home from Oceanside today I had a really neat opportunity to be alone with my thoughts. I was able to bring all my cares to the Lord & ask for direction & guidance. Ive been feeling really different lately. Ive been so anxious to see & experience what God has for me next. Ive been so tired of this place that Im in. My growth has been so hindered by my soroundings & I feel such a need for escape. Getting out of Fullerton is unrealistic at the moment, but I know Ive been called to something more & somewhere different from everything that Ive known for the last 8 or 9 years of my life. When I went away to college my life was exactly the way I wanted it to be. I was doing something. I was learning & I was growing. I was experiencing life, traveling, seeing God's invisible attributes through His creation, venturing out with little to no expectation.
But now, here I am, working a full time job to indulge myself in all of my expensive taste for things & bad habits. Trying to live my life full of luxuries & pleasures, all while neglecting & ignoring my purpose.
But I see all of that right now. & Im so tired of it. I dont know what the opposite of all of this looks like, but I am putting all of my trust in the Lord & I know that He will reveal these things to me. I think I am beginning to see what direction my life is going & who I want alongside of me on the way there.
& who I dont want.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, & lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, & He shall direct your paths. " Proverbs 3:5-6
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