Thursday, May 8, 2008

Where are we? What the hell is going on?

In the last few days I have been making decisions that are presently working towards my happiness & could quite possibly turn into future sadness. (only time will tell) I had this great talk with Brenda last night & I was really surprised that I didnt get the reaction I expected from her, which is also the reaction I expect from anyone. I talked to her about my decision to begin a relationship with someone she didnt know, & in a sense, I suppose, didnt approve of. Not because he is a bad person but because she doesnt know him. I find myself stepping into a new chapter, where I am getting what I deserve - a person who treats me the way I want to be treated, makes me happy & respects me. But I am still skeptical of it all & I know he knows that. I feel like there are so many restrictions in our relationship, like we've already set what can & cant be done, & I mean emotionally. There's no way I can get use to this.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

It'll all work out B...Things tend to always work out. I miss you! Where have you been all my life? lol

Autumn Rose said...
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Autumn Rose said...

I wish a world of happiness for you my dear dear friend, I have said all I can say about this relationship you are about to take on. My honest opinions you know and value I should think. But I can not lie to you and say I think you are making the right decision... but none the less I love you and wish you hapiness... just not a short lived one. But you'll figure it out I hope.
Lovingly, me!

heather o. said...

so bea, i love you. i have one of these bad boys. i don't know if it lets you add friends like myspace....but if it does...i don't know how. i would add you though because you are my baby girl. i want to hear about hte new boy sometime. maybe you can DRIVE and come see me!!! ahhhhh! love you.
heather o.